~ I still would have ~

“I still would have”

I would have

Loved you

If you

Had

Just given

Me

A chance

Was I

Too much

For you?

Was I

Not

Enough

For you?

Did my

Cries

Hurt you?

Was my

Smile

Beneath you?

Was my

Fingers

Just not

Right

For you?

Was my

Voice

A reminder

To you?

Yet

Knowing this

I still

Would have

Loved you

Was I

Not in

The right

Time

For you?

I cried

For you

I dreamt

Of you

Yet

Still

I would

Have

Loved you

Even after

If All of this

Is true

I would

Have

Loved you

But

I wasn’t

Good enough

For you

Yet

Even if

This is

True

I would

Have

Loved you

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~Love You Said~

“Love You Said”

Love you said

Is the very air

I breathe

Yet

Why does it feel

Like I’m suffocating?

Love you said

It’s the very beat

In my heart

Do I hear its

Melody?

Yet

Why is it

I’m deafen with silence?

Love you said

It is all

The colors of the rainbow

Then why is it

I only see in black and white?

Love you said

Is those bubbles

In my champagne

Yet

Why is it

I crave only for fine wine?

Love you said

Is me

For I always

Stand outside the lines

Love I said

Is me

And I smiled

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~ Kiss ~

“Kiss”

Eye to eye

We stand

His breath

I breathe

Will he

I hope

My fingers

Finds his

Tingles

Rush

I blush

He knows

His caress

I’m weak

Moves

Closer

Is he

I hope

His lips

Graces mine

Teasing

Yearning

For more

I let go

Pull him

Closer

His lips

Join mine

Burning

Like a

Hot summer

Day

Kiss

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Fate

“Fate”

Just one more push I hear the voices say

I can’t, it wasn’t supposed to happen this way

Blood on my hands, blood on my thighs

In this terrifying moment all I can is question why

I felt him moving around inside

Anticipated dreams I was giving life

Then my dreams took on a different fate

Can you hear me it wasn’t supposed to happen this way

Grieving pain eclipsed my womb

Anticipated dreams now consumed with doom

Blood on my hands, blood on my thighs

Push again I hear through my screams and cries

I open my eyes to the sounds of chaos

I hear these words “the heartbeat we lost”

Stabbing pains rips through my womb

I can feel him no longer our fate now sealed with doom

I reach out my hand to have a look in their eyes

I say these words “All I wanted was to hear my newborn cry”

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Oh Father Dear

“Oh Father Dear”

Oh father dear, can you hear me, are you holding my son close?

I’m on my knees praying that it is he you love the most

In this moment of my tears, are you singing him my lullaby?

Oh father dear, did you tell him, that there are no final goodbyes?

Do you rock him in your arms at night so he knows he’s not alone?

Do you tell him stories of me from so many years ago?

Oh father dear, can you hear me, for I’m praying so you know

That in my heart, I have love for him, and I need you to tell him so

I will suffer these tears of pain just knowing he’s at peace with you

Oh father dear, up in heaven, beyond the skies of blue

Lays my son, just a baby, what is a mother to do

Every day I cry these tears and just hoping he is with you

Do the angels sing to him at night when he cries out for me?

Do they hum his special lullaby and kiss him so tenderly?

Oh father dear, can you hear me, I miss my son so

Empty arms, just praying, that you are holding my son close

In your arms do you cradle him, will you protect him for me

Do you give him the love that only a mother can give, for he is so small and sweet?

For he is just a child, so innocent, with eyes colored blue

Oh father dear, can you hear me, is my baby with you

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Wiltering Petals

“Wiltering petals”

So there I found the rose

Holding onto its last breath

It was wiltering away

The rose looked so lifeless

So I started removing the discolored petals

One by one

What a lovely surprise I found

As I removed each one

The rose was so much softer

Its color was even brighter

For beneath the wiltering petals

Was something even lovelier

I admired its warmth of beauty

I engulfed its sweet perfume

I had to smile to myself

Realizing its beauty wasn’t where I assumed

So I put the rose back down

To admire it once again

Knowing the rose won me over

From its beauty within

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~Just a Memory~

“Just a memory”

You were so in love, you laugh and sang

The perfect couple they said as the church bells rang

Through smiling faces and rice being thrown

Off to your honeymoon somewhere in Rome

You made love all night; you’re in love sweet bliss

You spoken tender words and sealed your love with a kiss

You talked of a child to bloom your sweet love

Dreamt of white picket fences and snow white turtle doves

As the honeymoon comes to an end and I settle into your womb

A heartbeat I am, I’m your dream come true

As time moves on, your love for him turns into hate

Bickering and fighting as you tell him your friend has been late

I’m snuggling inside, a soft warm home

We are now one, you are no longer alone

He walks out your door; he doesn’t want to be a part of this

Wedding bells are over as he slams the door in a fit

Alone he left her; she is now crying and sad

Alone and pregnant there is no longer a dad

A mom to be she doesn’t know what to do

A moment in time she wanted me, now she hasn’t a clue

An appointment she made to talk about me

She wipes her tears away as she finds out I’m a he

She wraps her arms around her womb, to cover the sound of her voice

She says I’m so sorry, but I’m left with no choice

I give her a kick; I try to reach her heart

That was my last memory before I was ripped a part

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~Just One More ~

“Just one more”

Just one more cut to know I’m alive

Just one more pill to cover the scars

Just one more drink so I can survive

She stands in her bedroom doorway

Her hands covered in blood

Just one more cut so I can feel alive

Her small frail son

Sits in the old chair

Rocks back and forth

Quivering in fear

Just one more pill she yells to her son

To cover my unattractiveness

Of years gone by

He looks up, his eyes filled with tears

He screams out

Why? Why? Why?

Just one more drink she yells

As she is barely able to hold on

I just know I can survive

I go and I sit next to him

Not sure how to comfort his pain

I look into the direction he’s looking

I try to remain unruffled and serene

Just one more cut to feel I’m alive

Just one more pill to hide my scars

Just one more drink I know I will survive

I take his small hand Place it into mine

Somehow he pulls himself together

Stands with apprehension

Still trembling in fear

She watches him

As he walks past her

His eyes

Drenched in pain

She yells at him

Just one more cut so I can feel alive

Just one more pill to cover these scars

Just one more drink I know I will survive

In the whisk of the moment she sees his pain

She moves closer to her son as she follows his eyes

There in this moment

Is what caught her by surprise

There she lies in her bed

Drenched in her own blood

Pills scattered amongst the wet stain sheets

On the floor next to her bed

Is her last fallen drink

Just one more cut

She says in a whisper

For I’m no longer alive

Just one more pill

For I can no longer hide

Just one more drink

As I close my eyes

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~My Brother ~

“My brother”

Can you hear me, does my voice travel to your side

I just want you to know, that today, I did fall down and cry

I heard their words, so kind, so giving, yet I was left with no voice

I know inside I don’t understand, for I have to accept your choice

Can you hear me, my brother; today I felt your presences

You were right by my side; could you hear all my questions?

I fell to my knees as I lift the remaining of this dirt

When will all this pain fade, when will I no longer hurt?

I can still hear your voice; it lingers deep in me my brother

Today is the making of a new day as I watch all the others

Tears strolling down wet cheeks, they are all in pain for you

You never saw your meaning, you never felt the truth

Can you hear me my brother, as I toss the remaining of the dirt

I will never forget you, for I will forever remain in this hurt

Today is the day that I will always show them your truth

For today is the day my brother, the day that I buried you

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~If You should by chance ~

“If you should by chance”

If you should by chance

Trace me in your

Thoughts

Color me in thee

Color

Blue

If you should by chance

Hear my voice

In the wind

Color it in thee

Color

Pale tan

If you should by chance

Get wet by thee

Winds that carry rain

Color me in thee

Color

Of traced lines

If you should by chance

Wonder where

I am

Open up

Your pale tan palms

My wet beating

Heart

Is

With you

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~A Gift to You ~

“A gift to you”

You are shattered and broken

You fall down and cry

You always question

As your screaming out why

I give to you my friend

My hands to help you stand tall

Can you feel my strength

You are no longer alone

You tremble with pain

Your anger soars

You deny everyone around you

For you hurt to the core

I give to you my friend

My shoulders to bear it all

You are no longer alone

I am for you that strong

For this pain you carry

Makes you want to run and hide

You think no one understands

All this pain you keep inside

I give to you my friend

My warm embrace

You are no longer alone

Together now it can be faced

You tremble with tears

You feel so alone

Your heart is in so much pain

You no longer can see anyone

I give to you my friend

My eyes to see it through

You are no longer alone

For I have always been standing next to you

You want to give up

You just want to throw it all in

You can’t see any way out

You think your pain is going to win

I give to you my friend

My heart it’s a gift to you

For you are no longer alone

For now my heart beats for two

I stand next to you

While you’re still on your knees

I place this gift in front of you

This gift will always be me

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"Life iS Born"

“Life is born”

As thee humbling rain falls

A seed planted its roots

A flower emerges towards surface

The sun graced its bloom

Heavenly colors, life is born

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Birth of Dawn

Birth of Dawn

Hidden behind thee glorified sunrise

Lies thee glisten blue stars

Waiting

For the earthly scents too pass

From the birth of dawn

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Can you

 

“Can you”

Can you hear it?

Like thee

Knocking

On

The door

Can you feel it?

Like thee

Fine mist

In

The air

Can you touch it?

Like thee

Flowers

In that

Delicate vase

Can you see it?

This broken heart

That you

Can no longer

Hear

Feel

Or

Touch

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